Which Is It?

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The question is
Am I afraid?
If the answer is yes
Then another question beckons
Of what?
Or whom?
Of myself?
Of other’s opinions?
Can it be that I’m supposed to bring something entirely new?
Or am I just afraid to play this game?
Maybe even win this game?
Questions require answers

Dear God

Which is it?

I’m even afraid to know
But the only way out is through

I have to feel the embarrassment of losing
Of being physically less than
Of being not good enough for some people
Not to their liking and shamed for what I believe and think is right
A pussy or a tyrant?
Or is there another way?
A way of the greatest peaceful warrior with force and soul

Hopefully so
I have to find my own way

Ian Altosaar